Ego, phone home!
Ego, phone home!
My doctor says I need to take better care of myself. I suppose I can’t deny it. He does have several test results to wave under my nose. So, I guess maybe I need to find my ego. I mean, who else is going to take care of me, right?
Poor ego is all heart-broken and sulking because I don’t pay enough attention to it. It probably wandered off while I was ignoring it, hoping to find someone more receptive and co-operative. . . Gosh, I hate to think of my Ego out there, all alone, exposed to the elements, wandering aimlessly. It’s probably out there trying to get into everybody’s business, trying to run their lives; and causing them to worry about all sorts of stuff. Maybe you’ve seen Ego, and you can tell it to call home.
Lets see, what can I tell you about my sweet little Ego? It wants people to worship me, but it is willing to compromise. It doesn’t want to compromise, mind you, but it wont ever admit defeat and give up control, so - it is forced to compromise. So my darling Ego usually feels a bit frustrated, or fearful. Sometimes my dear Ego is so beat down though that it is just happy if you will treat me nice, or if you do things that Ego thinks should be done. . . But Ego is always happy when it’s expectations are met, which is not very often really, but it is sooooooo stubborn. Ego always keeps digging to be #1 and to sit in the top seat above everybody else. Ego likes the top-down view. Nervous little fellow, Ego seems to worry about everything. Ego is just never content, and never satisfied. Ego always wants to control everything, so nothing ever gets a chance to control me.
Ego doesn’t know how to share. Ego always whines and complains when I do that. Ego had such a monster fit when I started up this blogging, let me tell you. Then it wanted to compromise. Ego insisted that if I was going to do this bit, then I had to write self-serving stuff, and always look my very best, and tell everyone how wonderful I am. I’m pretty sure that Ego and mom must be related in some way. . .
Ego said that it would really appreciate it too, if I would quit pissing people off. . . Ego doesn’t think that benefits me very much. Ego doesn’t care about truth. The only truth that Ego knows is that I should be #1. . .Ego thinks that me being more popular - might help achieve that a little bit faster.
Ego has very little patience. It doesn’t understand waiting for stuff. It wants my will to be fulfilled now, right now if possible. Waiting really irritates Ego. And Ego isn’t very kind either. Ego wants what it wants when it wants it, no excuses. Ego views other people as either resources or obstacles. . . If it were up to Ego, I’d just slay all the obstacles and move forward toward my goals. Ego is like that. Anything that doesn’t serve me, Ego thinks I should just toss it out and be rid of it.
What else can I tell you to help you identify Ego? Oh! I know. . . There is this method of learning where you compare opposites, so as to help get a better feel and understanding for the subject one is studying. So, maybe that will help here. Did I mention that Ego is the opposite of Love? . . . Yeah. Have a look. This should help identify the little bugger. . .
My Ego is the opposite of this:
“Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.”
So, if you should spot Ego, please, tell him to phone home. I might have found a use for him now.
(C) RLMcCormick
